Before I tell you about the healthy stuff I've eaten today, I want to tell you about the not-so-healthy stuff :( I know that if my mom reads this, she is going to roll her eyes and say, see, this is why you're getting fatter... Hahaha
But I can't help it! I love my chocolate. And I don't have a lot of self control. So please don't ask me how long (or should I say SHORT) a time it took me to eat ALL of these...
This is one lone square of Casino 72% dark chocolate. I'm really crazy about it because it only costs 100 pesos for a 100g bar (Green&Black's chocolate costs a bit more than TWICE!) and is made of fair-trade cocoa! :) They also make this really brilliant 85% dark chocolate with delicious roasted cocoa nibs in it! :) I'm seriously in love with this chocolate brand.
This is "Health Nut" sugarfree (well, supposedly sugarfree, at least but the package has ZERO nutrition information so it's a bit iffy...) chocolate from Edsa Shang bakeshop, at 340 pesos for a fairly thick bar. It's really delicious and has nuts (pistachios and cashews in it) and suspiciously tastes a bit too good to be sans sucre...
Anyway, here is what I ate today. My goal now is to eat at home as much as I possibly can, because eating out (which I do a loooooot, huhu) is expensive and (as I have learned through my own experience) FATTENING! :( I'm really trying to shed the fat now because I want to be totally trim. I've never been fit, probably also because it hasn't really ever been a goal of mine to be fit. I've always wanted to be pin thin and fragile-looking, like the Olsens and Mischa Barton (when she isn't being a fatty) and Lindsay Lohan. But now I want to be fit, which means I have to exercise (and not just run) and really learn about smart eating, not just eating less.
Anyway, I made myself tuna ceviche with avocados and capers. If you've been reading this blog for a long time, you must already know that I am really savage when it comes to cooking -- no finesse, sorry. So I just scooped out the meat of half an avocado and chopped up a palm-sized piece of raw tuna, added a teaspoonful of capers, salt and pepper and tabasco and of course the juice of half a lemon. Done, done, done!
And that's how I made my smoothie too -- I am never one to measure! :) My sister goes nuts when I bake with her because she likes everything properly measured out (this explains why her baking projects always turn out well and mine are forever subpar) and I just like tossing things in. Anyway, there's like half a mango, a whole banana, frozen blueberries and strawberries, some yogurt and some milk in this. Usually, I just put strawberries, blueberries, yogurt and a banana in my smoothies (I sometimes add oats or flaxseed meal but the latter is pretty gross-tasting) so I was pleasantly surprised to find that the addition of a bit of mango makes my favorite smoothie 10000x better. You must try! :)
I am finally on break and am so very, very, very happy. I could really die right now, or maybe after this summer (I am going to the beach and to see Angkor Wat!) and I wouldn't mind at all. But of course it would be nice to live too and see what happens when I have to get a job and stuff... Urk.
I feel that life is so perfect right now, and this feeling has always frightened me. I found the ultimate encapsulation of this feeling while reading LM Montgomery's book, Anne's House of Dreams.
“It's so beautiful that it hurts me,' said Anne softly. 'Perfect things like that always did hurt me — I remember I called it "the queer ache" when I was a child. What is the reason that pain like this seems inseparable from perfection? Is it the pain of finality — when we realise that there can be nothing beyond but retrogression?'
'Perhaps,' said Owen dreamily, 'it is the prisoned infinite in us calling out to its kindred infinite as expressed in that visible perfection.”